Can Run But You Can't Hide"
name is John Smith. I grew up between Botwood Newfoundland and
Toronto, Ontario. There was a lot of hate and confusion there
as my mom was raising us to the best of her ability while my
dad worked in Ontario I could never figure out why my dad was
never around all I wanted was to have a dad around to do the
dad things like play ball, go to the park etc.
. but they
told me had to stay in Ontario to work. Now there was also a
lot of good my mom took us to church every Sunday and she rarely
missed and that I found out later in life that was the best
thing that could ever have happened to me, you see it is true
what the bible says train up a child in the way he/she should
go and when they are older they will not depart from it. My
mother did her best to instill us with good values and did an
awesome job doing so. For the first few years of my life I was
a quiet kid who stayed out of trouble. You see at one point
both my parents were ministers/preachers of the gospel. But
at an early age I started to hang out with the wrong type of
kids and I listened to the wrong people.
is my Testimony: (Short Version)
I said earlier I grew up going to church every Sunday so you
think my life would be a good one, well things were pretty good
until I reached the age of twelve; I was a ordinary shy little
guy who use to get into the normal amount of trouble. But then
one day at the age of twelve everything changed for me, while
I was on my way home from school on October 8, 1978 my world
as I knew it changed forever. I was hurrying home from school
as a matter of fact I was running up the stairs on back of my
school as this was a special day it was my Mother's birthday
and we were going to take her out for dinner that day.
I was running up the stairs 3 long flights to go up, I reached
the 1st flight and I saw these guys coming down the stairs I
never paid no attention to this as this was a school yard so
I continued on my way home up the stairs but as they were passing
on the second flight out of nowhere one of the guys reached
over and grabbed me by my arm threw me back against the railing
and started to punch my face.
never hit another part of my body just my face my eyes were
closing fast and I was freaking out as I did not know what was
happening or why. He continued to hit me until I could not open
my eyes at all, my eyes were so swollen I could not see a thing
left as fast as they came by this time other students were coming
up the stairs as I was the first one out and got a good head
start, I really was excited to be taking my mom out for her
birthday. The other students quickly got to where I was and
helped me back down the stairs to the school office where the
police and my parents were called, this was the beginning of
my nightmare. This was the beginning of many years of anguish.
after the attack my nerves went I could not be left alone I
would wake up screaming at night all I could see was those guys
in front of me punching me. I put my parents through hell and
back with the nightmares I was having and with my nerves starting
to fail me I ended up in hospital & counseling.
lost all interest in school I would just go and skip classes
never wanted to be there, I remember on my 16th birthday the
truancy officer knocking on my door and I told them I quit,
this of course after being suspended many times and almost kicked
out of school.
of all I was going through with my nerves I lost touch with
the real world and having no one I thought who cared or I could
turn to I found the wrong type of friends and I started to use
drugs to ease the pain and soon I found out I was making friends
and loved the attention, soon the pain eased and the nightmares
stopped because I started to go to parties, trying to find something
to give me peace. I remember I would go to a party they would
give me a beer I hated the taste of it so would just dump it
down the sink and fill the bottle with water, but you know I
realized soon I was being accepted because I had a bottle in
my hand a cigarette in my mouth and was doing drugs with the
crowd. I liked this feeling of being accepted and having friends
soon I became the party favorite. At first it was ok just a
little here and there but soon my drug habit worsened and I
started getting into trouble.
was enjoying the feeling the drugs were giving me it would take
away the nightmares and gave me a good feeling. As time passed
I met a girl who later became my wife one day while sitting
in our apartment with friends doing our usual smoking drugs
one of my friends pulled out this bag with a white looking weird
stuff inside of it they dumped it on the table pulled out some
pipes and started to smoke this stuff. It looked like white
stones to me. Then they said here Smitty try some, I said what
told me Crack I had heard about this drug and was told it was
something to stay away from, but they looked like they were
having such a good high, they told me don't worry you can't
get hooked on it just trying it. So, after a while I gave in
and tried it and that was the beginning of many years of HELL!!!
I became hooked immediately; my life changed drastically, now
if you asked me if I was hooked the answer would have been no
way I was having such a good time. The lifestyle was there money,
friends, I used and I soon began dealing. But after a while
doing this living the life I could tell you so many things that
happened, but the bottom line is I lost control and after a
while I started stealing and robbing - doing anything I could
to relieve the sickness and pain the drugs put on me. No matter
whom I hurt or who got in my way I had to have my drugs, I was
hooked and on my way to HELL. CRACK COCAINE I call
the Devil's Drug.
after many years of a life that took me many places up &
down I was arrested in Toronto, Ontario and put into jail. I
was almost relieved, thinking I would at least get some help
with my drug problem. But I was wrong. I was charged with Armed
Robbery and different offences. In October of 1987, I went to
prison for the first time in my life. If my life had been bad
before, it was really a nightmare now.
first week that I was in jail I got a call saying I had a visit,
it was on a Saturday and I was sick because I was coming off
the drugs and booze. The only person that was coming to see
me was my Mother; she never gave up on me no matter what I did
to her or what I put her through. She never stopped praying
for me or loving me.
remember they called me on this Saturday and said I had a visit.
I went looking for my mother because as I said was the only
one I had left and the only one who was coming to see me. To
my surprise, I found these two people a man and a woman who
was there to see me. I said who are you they told me their names.
We had our visit and they left but something was different they
prayed and said see you again soon. And they came almost every
week the whole time I was in jail. There needs to be more people
like them that God places a soul upon their heart and they obey
God. Because if it was not for them and my Praying Mother I
know I would not be here today.
tried to get off the drugs. For a while, I did okay. But the
devil kept whispering, "You can do them just once or even
every now and then. It'll be okay." Of course, that was
a lie, and soon I was using drugs again.
I got out of prison I did not stay in Toronto as when I was
in prison I met this lady through a pen pal who lived in Halifax
so I took off there. I said to myself after all this time in
jail I was ok not hooked on CRACK anymore that I was ok. I moved
to Halifax once there I thought my life was ok I never did drugs
but I drank like crazy little did I realize all I was doing
was substituting the alcohol for the drugs, this went on for
nearly a year and then one night while out drinking I got drunk
and next thing I knew I was right back on the crack. My life
went downhill real fast to the point where life was not worth
living anymore I started to look at ways to take my life I did
not want to live any further in this world I was hurting.
had enough sense of mind to finally call my Mother, when she
picked up the phone I told her I was finished with life I was
doing drugs again and could not handle it anymore, my mother
as usual told me not to give up but to come HOME. After all
I did to my parents she told me to come home. She decided to
get me back to Toronto, this was in September 1993. Once in
Toronto I stayed with them I was sick from the drugs and alcohol
it was on September 26, 1993 when I awoke and decided life could
not go on any further I was hurting so bad for drugs and a drink.
I decided I would end it all, I remember my Mother getting ready
to go to church that evening she had a few friends over to her
place and they invited me to come to church there was a special
speaker there I would like to hear.
said no way can I go to church in my condition so my mom went
on to church, but then her friend came by and urged me to go
with her, I said to myself why not I would not be around much
longer as I already had plans made to take my life that evening
I would go to church make everyone happy then do what I needed
to do, so I went and sat on the side of the church they went
through the service and then the Preacher got up to preach it
was getting near time to go and I felt different I remembered
all the times in Sunday School etc.
my mom had instilled
in me as a boy and I said God if your real you got to clean
me up you got to set me free otherwise this is it I am taking
my life TONIGHT.
preacher was preaching and something strange happened. God began
to convict me of all the bad things I had done in my life. I
realized the pain and suffering I'd been through wouldn't begin
to compare with what was ahead of me because I knew if I took
my life I was going to HELL but I didn't care because I figured
I was in hell already. I knew then that if I didn't make some
changes, and make them quickly that if I took my life the torment
was only going to start.
said God I can't do this on my own you got to do this for me
you got to do that for me and suddenly, he spoke to me so clearly
and said you want me to do this for you and you want me to do
that for you, BUT WHAT ARE YOU WILLING TO DO FOR ME? I said
God I will give you my life as that is all I had left to offer
him, that was it I felt a load shift.
I was coming off all the drugs and booze and my mind was playing
tricks on me I thought I was going crazy so I said ok God if
this is you and I am not losing my mind, I looked around the
church I never knew anyone there except my mother and her friends.
I said ok God prove yourself to me so I will know this is you
and I am not losing my mind, I looked around and saw a Gray-Haired
Lady sitting on the other side of the church and I said God
you send her to me to confirm this so I know it is you.
put my head down and before I knew it I felt a tap on my shoulder
saying excuse me Sir I don't know who you are but God said this
is your night to be set free. I never blinked I got up out of
my seat and walked down the stairs to the altar I fell on my
knees and that night in September 26, 1993, I asked the Lord
to forgive me and to come into my life. And He did! He delivered
me from drugs and alcohol instantly and he helped me start all
anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has passed
away, behold, the new has come (2 Cor. 5:17)."
If you are bound by drugs or alcohol or lost in sin and think
there is no way out, believe me, Jesus is the way! He said,
"I am the WAY, and the TRUTH and the LIFE
14:6)." Whatever your problem is drugs, alcohol, He
is waiting to set you free!
friend call on Him today, and pray this prayer, as I did there
in that church in 1993 He will set you free, if you are sick
and tired of being sick and tired and you want change more than
anything else in life, simply pray this prayer and you WILL
BE SAVED & I BELEIVE SET FREE TODAY.
Jesus, I am a sinner in need of a Savior. I'm truly sorry for
my sins. I believe you are the Son of God, and that you died
for me that I might have a new life in you. Please forgive me
now, and help me start all over again." Take away my addiction
please set me free and give me a new life. Jesus I GIVE you
my life today use it for your glory in your name I pray, Amen.
do just that leave your addiction with the Lord it is no longer
yours he said it is cast in the sea of His forgetfulness NEVER
to be remembered anymore.
you mean that with all your heart, you are born again, and Jesus
is your Lord.
love to hear from you! Please write me today be sure to include
your Name, Address and Phone Number and your e-mail address
and tell me what God has set you free from or write me if you
just want to talk, I promise to Personally respond to each e-mail.
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God Richly Bless you and your Family Today.
Pastor John Smith
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